NOT ME, don’t pick me, no way, I’m a true “christian”, a selfless, praise deferring, servant of Christ, deserving of nothing, a sinful, wretched complete failure with out Him.
……..read that sentence again!
…………………..one more time!!
Now tell me, in complete honesty that it makes you wanna stand up and shout aloud,
I SERVE THE CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE, THE ONE TRUE GOD, THE IMMORTAL, WHO GAVE HIS LIFE FOR ME, WHO GAVE HIS LIFE FOR YOU, WHO ROSE TO LIVE AGAIN AND IS LIVING INSIDE OF ME AND WANTS TO LIVE INSIDE OF YOU………….ETC. ETC. ETC.
NOT ME, nope, it makes me wanna crawl in a hole, cover my head and beg God not to be mad at me, not to see me for my disgusting fleshly desires, not to be disappointed in my feeble attempt at life, not to push me back down any time I look up at Him in an attempt to take joy in who “I could be in Him”.
I’m sitting here (oddly enough as I just stopped for a moment and realized what song was playing – “Sinking Deep” by Hillsong Young & Free) and as I write this I have a ridiculous amount of emotion going on. I’ll admit, a small part could be because at times I do feel like that wretched sinful failure, and I fight daily to overcome my daily habits and shortcomings, but more so because as I scan through social media platforms, listen to conversation, read blogs, articles, opinions, news reports, blah blah blah, and all I see is a society of us who though we claim to be selfless, only talk about ourselves, our horrible day, our problems, our issues and so on. And when we do talk about others, we “talk about others”, we find the ones we disagree with and highlight them, we find our adversaries and point ’em out as if we were building our own little armies and we were recruiting as many as we could. We stand on mountain tops claiming the “truth” which if we just took a moment to really think through it all might find that “our” “truth” might not come from the Source but might actually come from our own selfish, praise absorbing, desire to be validated and accepted among our peers or those we aim to please.
Or maybe that was just my way of letting off steam, maybe the strongest emotion inside right now is the one that asks, “is that the God that I serve”? Is he this giant tyrant in the sky that has His thumb on the back of my head making sure I don’t take more than I deserve, because He wants to constantly remind me that I’m just a tiny little worthless creation of His and the ONLY reason I get to live is because He sent His Son to die for me, and that was all because He is gracious and merciful…..and kind…..and loving…..
Wow……..does any of this make any sense to you??
Ya me neither…..
Wait I wasn’t talking about the writing above 🙂 I was talking about the culture we’ve created.
Whether it be our attack on the world and it’s sinful ways (which is definitely the best way to win them to Christ and show that He truly does represent love and mercy and grace….I’ll stop there)
Or our attack on other denominations, ideology, theology etc (oh sorry I mean our defending the truth with a Christlike “I flipped tables over” type of anger, and comments that surely would have come from His mouth if He were here today)
Or just our attack on the next door neighbor who should never have been given children (might wanna take that up with the real Pro Creator, or think the many mistakes we’ve made that just happened to luckily not have a consequence)
Or the coworker who is a loser
The family member who’s an idiot
The politician who should be just like me, cause I’d surely make ALL the right decisions
The Celebrity who should as well…….
Is there a solution to all this? Surely! Are there any fine lines within any of this context? Absolutely!
Well, what are they??
Well as far as the fine lines, you’ll have to interpret on your own and see where there was some sarcasm, and maybe some unnecessary editorial commenting and determine your own approach.
But a solution?
Love God. Love People.
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres”. 1 Corinthains 13:4-7
Loving God, takes really knowing Him, finding who He truly is, trying a perspective that is not our own that would lead us to a place of understanding what’s behind the words He’s given us. AND, how He really feels about us.
Loving people, is a bit different, but, we can start by just doing our best to follow the scriptures interpretation…..that’d be something new.
Whether we are that Christian who is in the very first sentence on this page, a seeker of the knowledge of Christ and His Word and just desires the truth, or one of the “inbetweeners” who struggles with identity and surety like many of us, in the end, when all is said and done, we will all be judged the same, by the same judge, in the same way!
How bout instead of fighting a fight that has already been won, and defending the very One that needs no defender, why don’t we just represent the One who loves us more than our imagination, who desires to spend time with us, who actually “celebrates” us.
: the state of being “celebrated”